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I feel that death is better then living and having to face all this nonsense.. Friday, February 1, 2008
Just created this blog because I was at the end of my limits.Have been putting off this project because it was lik so near to my exams and such..
But sometimes I really cant take it anymore.
Been scolding me lik no one's business again.
I'm like trying to study heck!
I'm not playing for once in my entire life, I just got the drive to study.
Then you have to come and mess it all up for me.
I said that i got the motivation to study,
I meant because of the freaking practical test!
Because suddenly I enjoyed doing the practical.
And I also got some quite nice marks.
Why do you have to think that it is because of another person?!
That's the reason why I never liked telling you stuff about my life in school and such.
It is because you are too busybody for your own good.
You think that you are the supreme one in the house.
You never really cared about what daddy thinks.
You think that you are always right.
But you are not,
You have this mindset, that is why everytime I have a quarrel with you,
You think that I think that I'm always correct.
Please lah,
Not everyone thinks like you.
But everytime I want to say that,
I find that you are like so pathetic lah.
That you cant think out of your world.
Everytime things don't go your way,
you would always blame it on us.
Always blaming on those whose surname is chua in this family.
This is like so unfair.
Don't you make mistakes too?
Why is it only that you are allowed to make mistakes,
While the rest of the family is not allowed to make all these mistakes?
But i really cannot stand the way how you can be so fucking crude!
You brought me out of my studying of chemistry to help you with your cooking.
Okay, I don't mind it that much.
Because I know I haven been helping around the house much.
While helping you,
Why on fucking earth do you went bersek and started scolding me?
I'm already helping you and then you just said that all I ever do is stay in my room and not help around the house!
Even when Melvyn is being scolded,
I should have known that its because daddy is hungry and venting anger on him,
And should have automatically went out and help with the cooking.
And not stay in the room and listen to the scoldings and do nothing.
And what kind of useless shit I am.
Hey, I'm human too okay,
I don't care how crude you can be.
And honestly I think you have mood swings or something.
One moment you are okay,
Then the other moment you are screaming your head off at me.
Then the next moment you are talking nice to me again.
There must be something wrong with you.
I have no idea how you knew about Alex,
But can you stop bringing the past up.
Its over between him and me.
I cant stand it anymore.
I had enough!
Feeling the need to de-stress desperately; 10:51 PM;Y